Jennette McCurdy Breaks Down When Asked if She's Forgiven Her Mom

Former child actress Jennette McCurdy struggled to hold back her tears when she was asked during an appearance on Red Table Talk if she has forgiven her late mother for their fraught relationship.

McCurdy, 30, who is best known for her role as Sam Puckett in the Nickelodeon series iCarly, has stated in her tome that her late mother,

Debra McCurdy—who died of cancer in 2013—controlled her life and career, leading to anxiety and self-loathing.

The issues McCurdy endured have been chronicled in her recently-released book, I'm Glad My Mom Died,

parts of which she discussed while sitting down with Red Table Talk hosts Jada Pinkett Smith, Willow Smith, and Adrienne Banfield Norris.

At one point, McCurdy spoke the last words she shared with her mother, prompting the screen star to respond:

"She was in a hospice bed that was set up in our living room, and was really just detached behind the eyes."

"My brothers had each kind of given the good news of their lives," she recounted. "One of them was getting married,

one of them was moving back to California. And then I said, 'Mommy, I'm so skinny right now.'

"Like, the thing that I felt like was the most that I had to offer was my thinness. And I really, really, in my core at that time, I believed that that would get my mother to wake up.

I believed that she cared more about my body and my weight than she did about anything else that could possibly be uttered by my brothers' mouths. I really felt that mattered more to her."

Things later got emotional when a viewer called in and asked McCurdy whether she was ever able to forgive her mother for everything that had happened.

"Oh God, I'm gonna get emotional. I can already feel it," said McCurdy as she fought back tears.

"I worked toward forgiveness for a really long time, and my therapist said to me one day, 'What if you don't have to work toward forgiveness?'